Screws fall out all the time, the world is an imperfect place.

I used to think that I had no regrets. I liked the position in life that I held and all of my decisions I made got me there. I'm in a part in my life where I'm not sure where I'm going and I don't even know how I'm supossed to get there? I hate that feeling of being lost. I do have a regret. I don't hold back, and I should. I need to be more careful who I give my love to. I need to think before I speak. I need to have goals and go after them. I have goals, but I never take them seriously. I'm very thankful to be alive and healthy. I have a roof over my head, and clothes on my body. I have a loving family and group of friends. Whenever I start to feel like this, I remember this quote from the movie 'Charlie Bartlett'. The character, Kip Crombwell, tries to commit suicide and Charlie Bartlett visits him after the matter.

Charlie Bartlett: I just think you're missing the big picture.
Kip Crombwell: What big picture?
Charlie Bartlett: The universe.
Kip Crombwell: What about the universe?
Charlie Bartlett: Well, the universe is a pretty big place.
Kip Crombwell: Yea. It's infinite, theoretically.
Charlie Bartlett: Right, which means there's probably life on other planets.
Kip Crombwell: Not life like we think, but yeah. Probably at least single-cell organisms.
Charlie Bartlett: Well, see, that's my whole point. I mean you could've been born a single cell organism on the planet Zortex. In fact, given the odds, it's probably more likely, but you weren't. You we're born a human being. And not just any human being in the history of human beings, but a human being that gets to be alive today. That gets to listen to all kinds of music, that gets to eat food from every culture, that gets to download porn off the internet. So really, you have everything to live for.
Charlie Bartlett: Do you feel better?
Kip Crombwell: Not really

I think things in my life could be a lto worse, and I know this. I'm just impatient to see the good in the future.