I sorta just need to get this out there....
A: I wait until he's ready to grow the fuck up. Wait for him to stop smoking pot and stop acting like a child. He seems like a man on the outside, but boy is he deceiving. I figured after not seeing him for two years he wouldn't be the same silly boy I used to know, but I almost feel like I was lied to. I just wanted him to be so much more than he turned out to be. He's not completely hopeless, but he's not using what brain cells he has left for anything productive. "You're mood swings are giving me whiplash". That's exactly him. One minute he wants to see me, the next he forgets to tell me he's in Reno for a week for training. "I forgot tell you, sorry". I already have trust issues and you're toying with them. I don't know if your stupid or just playing me and I don't want to find out.
B: I wait for you to get her out of your system. She was a big part of you and she ripped your heart out. I remember that feeling well, but I promise, it does go away. He's the nice guy. He doors, he buy flowers, he care of your body. Why would he be interested in a girl like me? He has plans with his life and he's going places, I want him to take me with him. I'm just afraid with all my baggage he won't take me with him on his journey. He's so easy to talk to and relate to and I really just want to get to know this awesome person I just met.
C: I wait for him to stop being bored with girls. I'm not going into a relationship knowing it will just end three months down the road. That's stupid. I'm not going to be just another number to him, he says it's not like that, but I know better. He's been through a lot and so have I, I'm forgiving about the past. I wish I could be that one special person you don't get bored with, but be bored together.
D: I wait for him to stop living the dream. I can't wait for him. He'll take off for a year and come back for three months for a quick, "hello" and be off again. I've known him for five years, yet I know nothing about him, except that he cares. I know that if he dies, I'll cry, because I went through that with him over a mean joke. I don't know why he's so special and I don't know why he thinks I'm so special.
E: I wait for him to notice me. I've been here the entire time yet I'm a different person and so is he. He's actually an adult and acts like it. He listens to my ramblings and doesn't just respond with "lol". He has skirted off yet, so we'll see. He might be just going off to college and do fancy dorm stuff or he might come visit and say hi. Who knows.
So here I am, waiting. Waiting for boys to grow up, move past other girls, get over things, live their dreams, & go to school. I know I don't have to decide now, but I know I will farther down the road. I thought this was going to be easier.
A: I wait until he's ready to grow the fuck up. Wait for him to stop smoking pot and stop acting like a child. He seems like a man on the outside, but boy is he deceiving. I figured after not seeing him for two years he wouldn't be the same silly boy I used to know, but I almost feel like I was lied to. I just wanted him to be so much more than he turned out to be. He's not completely hopeless, but he's not using what brain cells he has left for anything productive. "You're mood swings are giving me whiplash". That's exactly him. One minute he wants to see me, the next he forgets to tell me he's in Reno for a week for training. "I forgot tell you, sorry". I already have trust issues and you're toying with them. I don't know if your stupid or just playing me and I don't want to find out.
B: I wait for you to get her out of your system. She was a big part of you and she ripped your heart out. I remember that feeling well, but I promise, it does go away. He's the nice guy. He doors, he buy flowers, he care of your body. Why would he be interested in a girl like me? He has plans with his life and he's going places, I want him to take me with him. I'm just afraid with all my baggage he won't take me with him on his journey. He's so easy to talk to and relate to and I really just want to get to know this awesome person I just met.
C: I wait for him to stop being bored with girls. I'm not going into a relationship knowing it will just end three months down the road. That's stupid. I'm not going to be just another number to him, he says it's not like that, but I know better. He's been through a lot and so have I, I'm forgiving about the past. I wish I could be that one special person you don't get bored with, but be bored together.
D: I wait for him to stop living the dream. I can't wait for him. He'll take off for a year and come back for three months for a quick, "hello" and be off again. I've known him for five years, yet I know nothing about him, except that he cares. I know that if he dies, I'll cry, because I went through that with him over a mean joke. I don't know why he's so special and I don't know why he thinks I'm so special.
E: I wait for him to notice me. I've been here the entire time yet I'm a different person and so is he. He's actually an adult and acts like it. He listens to my ramblings and doesn't just respond with "lol". He has skirted off yet, so we'll see. He might be just going off to college and do fancy dorm stuff or he might come visit and say hi. Who knows.
So here I am, waiting. Waiting for boys to grow up, move past other girls, get over things, live their dreams, & go to school. I know I don't have to decide now, but I know I will farther down the road. I thought this was going to be easier.
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I hope everything works out for you, darling.
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