If I Were a Boy

Maybe I should just leave now before I get hurt. I want whatever this thing is between us to work but if it's doomed to fail than I want to head out now and save myself from more heartache. Considering my past with men, history is bound to repeat itself. Fred left for Christina. Chris left for Hayley. Bert left for B.J. The others were me getting over myself, which I understand isn't right but, it's what happened. I want to play everything chill and calm, but I'm a girl and I give in to all my thoughts and anxieties. What if you're lying? What if you say this to all the girls? What if I'm not the only one? What if this is nothing? Why won't you text/call me back? Why do I have to have everything so tied into all of this, this whatever? Why isn't this labeled? Are we just friends? Are we more than friends? Am I just another notch in your belt? Who knows? I'm just going to try enjoy this time now, whatever this is. I'm terrified to get attached. In a year you're going to be over seas in war. The thought of losing you is scary. You could be gone in a matter of minutes and you're so calm and collected. How do you do it? Sometimes I feel like your from another planet.